Lost Memories

Since I have basically no memories of the first 6 years of my life, that raises a question of what kind of live I lived before. Sure my "parents" game me a backstory of my past and even showed me some photos. However, all that could be a lie.

While I do not have any cohesive memories or idea where I was back in the days, I do have some patchy memories that is hard to connect with anything. One of the large lofty room with white painted diagonal roof. Another of the red toy helicopter, that I somewhat remember playing with and owning, but I have never seen it among my toys in later stages in life. Another is a shallow lagoon in a very cold, intensively northern sea (possibly Baltic), it was surrounded by rather high but not too dense yellowish high grass. Final is buildings of dark grey stones and streets with relatively neat grass and trees next to the pavement, all adding up to a dark but cozy street. The grass was not like that in Russia, where it is nearly going extinct due to toxicity of air, however it was not trimmed to a very short heights, like in Australia for example. (Not really like on the picture above though, but that could be another town)

Perhaps these memories were of a country I used to live in during my early childhood. It could be something like Latvia, Estonia, Finland, Sweden or Scotland. My parents once mentioned something about Latvia. However, that could be something like Sweden or Finland instead.

I do not exhibit much traits people associate with Russia. In school in Russia, I was somewhat of an outcast. Almost as if other kids sensed an outsider and treated me with hostility. I kind of never get it why they treated me the way they did. Almost as if instincts of actual Russian kids would be able to navigate it. However, I was not Russian so, I did not know what to do. In the country I am really from it is not like that.

On the other hand, I do like Finnish music a lot. One of my friends from Russian Uni introduced me to it, and I picked up. So, it is possibly Finland. I wonder if I can get a Finnish citizenship with something like that.

It could be Sweden though. That picture possibly