I am starting to think that my real dad has defected to UK back when Putin took power. However, my mother did not want to defect with him, so she contacted Russian KGB to sneak back into Russia and took me and my brother with her. Russian KGB or other spy agencies likely help her flee UK.
Me and my brother were kept completely in the dark, at the very least I was kept in the dark. After visiting various museums in London, just like we often did on foreign trips, we just came back to Russia. Mom told us dad will come back after he finishes his work in London. That took time, we went back to school and other daily routine. Eventually dad came back ... but was that dad a real one or a fake?
Back in the days I could not think he was fake, after all mom acknowledged him, so are some of the family friends who still maintain contact by that time. KGB could have drugged or brainwashed us to make sure we will not notice the difference. For a long time, I thought this person was my dad. I even stayed with him, when he and mom divorced. That was not because he was such a nice person, but because my mom was such an awful person. Gradually I stopped getting along with this new fake dad and started to live on my own.
Nowadays I think he was fake. To begin with he was far too patriotic compared to my real dad or our family friends. That showed not overtly but rather in unusual incidents where he expressed usual for Russian patriots' disdain and desire to hurt those who 'hate Russia'.
I do wonder what happened to my real dad, or network of friends we had during 90s.
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