I am starting to think that my real dad has defected to UK back when Putin took power. However, my mother did not want to defect with him for some reason. Likely she contacted Russian KGB to sneak back into Russia from UK and also took me and my brother with her. I was not told anything at all, she just decided on her own for all of us, that evil cunt. Russian KGB or other spy agencies likely help her flee UK.
Me and my brother were kept completely in the dark, at the very least I was kept in the dark. I was not given any choice, and she did not even explain what happened, she lied and pretended this was just another of our regular foreign trips.
After visiting various museums in London, just like we often did on foreign trips, we just came back to Russia. I do not remember going back though, I just woke up in my Moscow apartment bed. Mom told me I was too tired from all the museums, so I slept the whole trip back and they carried me all the way to the plane and then back home. Looking back at it now, she probably lied and I was sedated instead. Back in the days I was barely a teen to think of such complex plots.
After our arrival, mom told us dad will return later after he finishes his work in London. That took time, we went back to school and other daily routine. A number of weeks or maybe months have passed. Eventually dad came back ... but was that dad a real one or a fake?
Back in the days I could not think he was fake, I was too young to think about such complex conspiracies. Mom acknowledged him as real, so are some of the family friends who still maintain contact by that time. Other broke all contacts. KGB could have drugged or brainwashed me and my brother to make sure we will not notice the difference.
That time distance before we last time saw our real dad and the time the fake one first appeared likely made that transition smoother. The fake dad might have occasionally appeared in our lives even before that, KGB probably had us in their sights for a long time and wanted to test how their double will work.
For a long time, I thought this person was my dad. I even choose to live with him, when he and mom divorced. That was not because he was such a nice person, but because my mom was such an awful person. Gradually I stopped getting along with this new fake dad and started to live on my own.
Nowadays I think he was fake. To begin with he was far too patriotic compared to my real dad or our family friends. That showed not overtly but rather in unusual incidents where he expressed usual for Russian patriots' disdain and desire to hurt those who 'hate Russia'.
Second, unlike my real dad, who bought me a lot of things and generally supported me well, a KGB fake instead gradually took most of it away. Instead of buying and giving me things he criticized my "selfishness" and gave me less and less.
Looking back, it was rather clear that he was not real as real parents support their children, not squeeze them dry. This KGB fake pretended to be real in hope of squeezing some value out of me, what exactly I was not told. He always told me as little as possible.
All that reminds me of Prince of Persia 2 intro, a game I used to play back in 90s.
If what I described above was indeed what actually happened, then I cannot forgive my mother for depriving me of my life I enjoyed during 90s and turning me into a guinea pig for KGB agenda and experiments. That is not how a real mother behaves.
Neither can I forgive KGB (Russian secret police and intelligence structures). I do hope one day they are completely eradicated down to every single man. These bastards deserve gas chambers. Nuke Lubyanka.
I do wonder what happened to my real dad, or network of friends we had during 90s. I am not sure if it's still possible to re-connect on emotional level after all this time.
At the very least I hope to get the money and my 90s lifestyle I was deprived off by KGB. We were rich and I do not want to endure poverty KGB and Upper Volta with nukes they serve subjected me to.
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